Beauty in Toxicity

Unctuous soul Bitter bones Broken breath The distance so great from the nature of nature and the nature of our nature Undigested waste held in our blood, captive in our fat Unevacuated emotion Poison ingested over centuries accelerating the mind, the words, the stories So sharp, so heavy Masquerading as real, seductively “true” Find the…

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Tides of Love

The tides of love. Riding each wave of breath to its last transient foamy sand print. Letting each cell digest the the fluidity of your skin touching mine … and then delicately returning to the fullness of my own being that existed long before the sea reached the land. 0

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Parasites

Parasites … fight/flight/freeze … cowards and thieves … the inherent flaw in all words … mutable mutant love … boundaries and agreements … failure … mission impossibles … the pain of hope … the addiction to fear … the last fucking stand. 0

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Door of God

The door is opening, the gate of preference, unhinging Love and hate Light and dark Gross and subtle The portal between pain and pleasure swallows me whole, dilutes and strengthens Precious alchemy of the feminine, all and nothing, absolute and incomplete The riddle with every answer and no possible explanation As my aversion eats my…

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Mystery

The mystery of my longing to come home to the mystery. A loop in my heart, a steadiness in my belly. The sensation of merging deep in the root system of Mama Earth while the buoyancy of my emptiness expands far past the veil. My hands listen at the front lines of full-bodied intuition. Trust…

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Ripening

Ripening into you Hugging you, I notice a surprisingly silky texture, a vibration of newness that points to the place where we are both shedding skins Shedding layers of holding and pretending … letting the tired scaffolds fall to the floor, revealing reality in its awe-inducing glory What is and what isn’t? I tiptoe quietly…

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New

New, trembling, raw, alive Absorbed into the ether where pain and love mate and produce a fresh nothingness The flavor of raw, global ecstatic misery birthing in my body, feeling it all Nature, its eruptions and earthquakes, its rainy tears and cultural tragedies, violent and beautiful, in me and through me And the love, it…

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Choosing to Wake Up

I collapsed. I fell. I lost myself in love drunk fantasies … in karmic delusions … in never-ending patterns of self-devotional laziness. Sabotage? Regret? Remembering the times when it was too late … When I crawled into the light just as the door slammed shut. Repulsion in the mirror, in an empty room. Nothing to…

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Waking/Longing

Waking Awaken, remember to your roots To the base of it all The full spectrum of every color red, blue, black lust, disgust, devastation all flavors every sensation beyond your training beyond your guru Through all the fierce, cloudy mirrors…comes Purity Emptiness Home Longing I want it all Every bit Flesh in my teeth Bone…

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Inhale

Forever … in a moment, in a dream, in a thought, in a breath Never … in a moment, in a dream, in a thought, in a breath Let’s create this moment with our innocent remembering, our timeless gaze And erase it with the next breath Let’s build a dream with our pure desire, our…

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