Mystery

The mystery of my longing to come home to the mystery. A loop in my heart, a steadiness in my belly. The sensation of merging deep in the root system of Mama Earth while the buoyancy of my emptiness expands far past the veil. My hands listen at the front lines of full-bodied intuition. Trust…

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Ripening

Ripening into you Hugging you, I notice a surprisingly silky texture, a vibration of newness that points to the place where we are both shedding skins Shedding layers of holding and pretending … letting the tired scaffolds fall to the floor, revealing reality in its awe-inducing glory What is and what isn’t? I tiptoe quietly…

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New

New, trembling, raw, alive Absorbed into the ether where pain and love mate and produce a fresh nothingness The flavor of raw, global ecstatic misery birthing in my body, feeling it all Nature, its eruptions and earthquakes, its rainy tears and cultural tragedies, violent and beautiful, in me and through me And the love, it…

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Choosing to Wake Up

I collapsed. I fell. I lost myself in love drunk fantasies … in karmic delusions … in never-ending patterns of self-devotional laziness. Sabotage? Regret? Remembering the times when it was too late … When I crawled into the light just as the door slammed shut. Repulsion in the mirror, in an empty room. Nothing to…

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Waking/Longing

Waking Awaken, remember to your roots To the base of it all The full spectrum of every color red, blue, black lust, disgust, devastation all flavors every sensation beyond your training beyond your guru Through all the fierce, cloudy mirrors…comes Purity Emptiness Home Longing I want it all Every bit Flesh in my teeth Bone…

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Inhale

Forever … in a moment, in a dream, in a thought, in a breath Never … in a moment, in a dream, in a thought, in a breath Let’s create this moment with our innocent remembering, our timeless gaze And erase it with the next breath Let’s build a dream with our pure desire, our…

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Devotion

Devotion isn’t an action It’s a portal … A bridge between sensation and curiosity Linking form and void, life and death, love and hate Breathing, feeling, longing Owning my desire to be fully in this body, Stretched wide, my skin coats the universe, as it is held in the spaces between the stars I am…

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Field of Shakti

Raw and real Brave and scared A little girl curls up inside my heart as the priestess puts on her robes Rest in strong arms, restore with deep tears Mourn and honor every part of my feminine being, even as I find my way along the razor’s edge The deep masculine in and around me,…

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Death Is Love?

How do you write about love and death? I’ve been trying to wrap my head around how to share this latest adventure deep into the heart of Bali with Yuri, with many false starts … often getting stuck in this idea … is this a love story? Or is this a death story? When my…

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Humanness

Letting go Diving in Let the tides take me inward Let the wind spread my ashes wide Whether you choose me or I choose me I will still be chosen And from there it will all disappear into itself Each cell a particle, each breath a miracle Reaching ever so far into the microscopic-ness of…

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