Personal Growth

Parasites

Parasites … fight/flight/freeze … cowards and thieves … the inherent flaw in all words … mutable mutant love … boundaries and agreements … failure … mission impossibles … the pain…

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Door of God

The door is opening, the gate of preference, unhinging Love and hate Light and dark Gross and subtle The portal between pain and pleasure swallows me whole, dilutes and strengthens…

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Ripening

Ripening into you Hugging you, I notice a surprisingly silky texture, a vibration of newness that points to the place where we are both shedding skins Shedding layers of holding…

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New

New, trembling, raw, alive Absorbed into the ether where pain and love mate and produce a fresh nothingness The flavor of raw, global ecstatic misery birthing in my body, feeling…

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Choosing to Wake Up

I collapsed. I fell. I lost myself in love drunk fantasies … in karmic delusions … in never-ending patterns of self-devotional laziness. Sabotage? Regret? Remembering the times when it was…

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Field of Shakti

Raw and real Brave and scared A little girl curls up inside my heart as the priestess puts on her robes Rest in strong arms, restore with deep tears Mourn…

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Humanness

Letting go Diving in Let the tides take me inward Let the wind spread my ashes wide Whether you choose me or I choose me I will still be chosen…

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Love Is Dead?

One intense Bali Valentine’s Day afternoon, I laid in my teacher’s arms, weeping from a deep sensation of purging romantic love from my system. Not love for one lover or…

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